Been home alone for a few days while my wife and kids are visiting family in Ontario.
I miss them imensely, but thrilled they're getting time away in a different setting. Plus, it's given me some time to be a little more reflective.
Wednesday, I spent the whole day alone - intentionally. I scheduled no appointments. Worked alone all day. After work spent a couple of hours in a park reading. Rented a movie and watched it alone. It started off tough, but became a rewarding day.
Funny that Thursday I spent the whole day with people - from appointments to dinner time - also rewarding in it's own day.
Looking forward to hanging with my church over the week-end... some good friends!!
THIS HIT HARD: I often try and understand my mom who's been trying to stay encouraged since my Dad passed away 2 years ago. From the phone in my kitchen - 500KM away - it's easy to tell her: go out, do stuff, things will be better, you do have a life to live and offer.
There were moments alone these days that caused me to think of what life would be like if these days were multiplied into years - imagining I've spent the previous 45 years with my best friend, suddenly to lose him/her, trying to figure out how to pass the time and enjoy life... now only alone.
MOM... I'm not in your shoes, but I feel for you.
(she doesn't read blogs, so I doubt she'll ever read this... but I pray each day gets easier and better for her)
2 comments:
Wow, dude! Talk about baring your soul. I spent the last two days sharing a bed with my brother, instead of with my wife, and that was difficult already. I don't want to imagine the remainder of a lifetime.
it really made me reflect on how my mom, and others feel when they lose their most treasured human relationship... i missed my wife and kids, but intentionally not seeing anyone for a whole day really chnaged my perspective... b/c honestly it mnust be extremely difficult for them.
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