just writing...

I’ve had this yearning feeling in me to write more. Not sure if it’s some dream welling up in me, or just the need to unleash in a more concrete and creative way. Writing helps me express. I write my sermons out and then edit. I take tons of notes before I start to write, but then hash it out while I write. I journal from time to time – not consistently. I enjoy writing and editing letters. I really enjoy the short note I add to a weekly news email to my church.

On a practical note, my most creative writing is on the computer where my hands don’t get so tired.

I wish I could get my self to blog daily. I love my blog, but I guess not enough to get content on their quick enough. I’ve been thinking about a new website/blog and then just read Michael Hyatt (supreme blogger) express that you should have content before you have presence. Hmmm?

This entry is turning into a journal. It sounds like it.

My blog is not meant to get so much info out there and promote myself. It’s probably more about expressing myself and working through ideas and convictions… and yes, maybe a little awareness (events, books, stuff in the city)

I agree with Ben Arment (another great blogger) that blogs are a dying breed – at least 95%. Most people are reading 140 characters on twitter, viewing videos on YouTube, following friends on Facebook, or scanning pics on Flickr. So a successful blog will likely be tied into those things. But success is not really the issue, I'm just rambling right now.

(insert side thought: when does Facebook and Twitter cross the line into self absorption to merely gaining friends to promote yourself)

(another side note: I fight to not promote things I’m apart of on Facebook. I have a strange feeling like I’m being arrogant when I do... still processing that. Maybe it's not the act but the motive. Verdict isn't out yet)

At the heart of this is my desire to be more creative. I feel dry. Ideas are thinning. I’m producing less impacting phrases and messages. So I want more.
(side note: part of this is spiritual, needing the time away to pray, reflect, think, create rhythm)

I’ve actually had offers to submit articles and haven’t yet. It’s almost been a year. I think it’s the fear of not writing well enough.

I'm not calling this post the famous “I’m gonna start blogging again, sorry it’s been so long.” (don't you love those, the next post happens 3 months later) I’ll just call it “thinking about stuff.” This removes the expectations that tomorrow I’ll share something profound. Let’s see what tomorrow brings.

Wow, you don’t know how incredibly good it felt to write that on paper… maybe this is a self-serving act after all. Please don't judge me.